Are you feeling scattered and stuck?

`Cause I certainly am…. So there it is, my Sunday debacle. I`ve started the month of August with so much drive, eagerness and hope to basically get my s***t together and it just all seemed like a domino of failures. Firstly I started doing some work on the house, remodeling my childhood room at my parents' house while also changing the windows all over, started off good was supposed to only  take up a week, but then my dad had a small heart-attack before the end of the  week (3 weeks ago), he ended up being hospitalized.

For the remaining week I felt debilitated could get much done so we just waited it out. He obviously can`t do any kind of effort activity since he got discharged from the hospital and now the entire house is upside down for the past 2 and a half weeks. My room furniture and bed and work station are all in the living room the widows aren`t finished yet, my room is 80% done in any case I had just been feeling stuck.

Before all of this I started this Month of August coaching thing were I`m supposed to plan getting my top 3 planned activities done on each corresponding day… you can imagine how that went .. And now, today  I just keep thinking like there`s so many things I want to get done on a career and personal level and somehow I feel like this room delay is keeping me stuck, I feel I don`t have enough privacy I`m not in my chi-type space to get this things laser-focused on, and on top of that I feel like all the topics I`m interested in are all so scattered.

Like one of my "tasks" each week is getting my blog post for the week done, the other is getting into programming-was supposed to start either start on my own with an online course a friend sent me or work with her for a couple of hours or an hour a week. Was of course going to buy a new laptop of my own to get this work started on it-of course you can imagine how that went.

So now I am wondering why I can`t just shake this thing off and get into the things I really want to do in spite of the conditions in my environment and getting anxious and frustrated about my own ability to … get my s***t together.. Well wouldn`t you know, ain`t that a full circle.. UGH

I wonder how anyone does this AND deals with the anxiety of their own imposed expectations on self.

I hope that everyone out there going through this will eventually find the ballance and mental clarity to get through this and still achieve the goals they`ve setup for themselves…🙏