Being back - trying to move on
It’s been a very long time since I’ve been here. I started this blog in the midst of the pandemic as something I had been wanting to do for a long time and would never find the right time to invest time and financial resources to make it the way I envisioned it.
And now that I have this outlet, it’s been hard to get into the regular posting I expected from myself
A lot of things happened in my life though meanwhile (not that it would ever be an excuse). Been through about 3 medium-size life meltdowns, moved countries to the US, resettled my whole life discipline with working day hours now and re-organizing my life. It’s also been a full-round rollercoaster ride with my personal life and emotions. Moving here hasn’t been 130% helpful in that regard but I’m trying my best to keep it together and move on while moving closer to the object of my affection.
I had been reflecting a lot on that lately and spiral between letting life be and giving into my wishes and desires “living in the moment” and wanting to take better decisions to further my life in the direction I drew in my mind. One big thing is I’d love to stop feeling stuck inside myself, when everything I could’ve wanted is happening around me.
I live in one of the most inspiring and beautiful, vibrant cities in the world now and I am enjoying it, but I also sometimes feel like I sabotage myself with useless self-depricating and self-pitying thoughts. Sometimes you just have to make decisions, go through the motions of recalibrating so you can make space for the things that actually fit the best.
I hope to be back at this with more self-expression and experiences in the “big city”- it’s been quite a long time since I’ve felt inspired by the fervour of city life, so I want to soak all or as much of it in as I can.
I am thoroughly grateful for every opportunity that presented itself and I was able to take and for the life I am living and have been living and will continue to be living onwards. <3
More coming soon… hopefully :)
